Geekiness

me: I'm mildly disappointed
I just found out that people here at the law firm don't consider me to be a geek
and I've always taken pride in my geekiness
C: *laugh*
aww shucks!
I'm amused at your disappointment
me: they think i'm well balanced and normal
which is totally baffling
C: I dunno. I think your self-definition is more important and significant that any other-definition of you.
So, if you feel like a geek and like that... then you are, by self-definition and it's a good thing
me: Sure, but if people are seeing things in me that I don't see that could be a problem.
Especially if they aren't seeing the right things.
Granted though in this case its not a problem
and its probably to my advantage
C: Well, then it's not really a pertinent worry, right?
me: But what else are they seeing that they aren't willing to tell me about
C: I mean, if people started to tell you " look, I think you are an angry person" and you don't see yourself that way, but that's the feedback you are getting.. .well, then it's something to think about But right now, it sounds like you are just making stuff up to worry about :)
me: LOL
C: that doesn't need to be worried about :)
me: well if someone saw something bad in me, maybe they are just too tactful topoint it out.
Some things just aren't worth bringing up, you know?
C: generally, it is your own responsibility to see what you consider good or bad about yourself and to change that if you want to. It isn't someone else's responsibility to bring it up. (Unless you are a child and then your parent may have some level of responsiblity)
me: true but how can you improve if you don't recieve any feedback?
C: Ok, or it is potentially an employers responsbility if the employee's qualities are affecting their work
me: also true
C: you don't need blatant conscious feedback... you received feedback everyday through interactions
me: also true and I suppose I think I have some self-consciousness about how others percieve me however vague that perception is
C: well, then, that sounds like some self-identified knowledge of self that you can choose to accept and be comfortable with or change
me: but I always thought that most of the things that I do and that define me did in fact blatantly earned me the label of "geek"
but apparently the definition of geek has changed withiout my knowing it which is entirely possible then of course I also live in Erie which isn't exactly the hub of the universe
C: whether that is true or not, the things that define you are still the same, from what you are saying and that's more the essence of it than the label
me: that makes sense
LOL or maybe they are just being polite because I'm a "minority".
That would be hilarious.